on a quest

When I was 25, a great age to be, I went to Glastonbury. The year was 1999. life was good. , I was in a band with a guy that was most influential to many groups out there today.
We were at Abbey Road studios one day with The Dandy Warhols in the room next to us, the main guy there in the band told me that spacemen 3 were his favourite group, Also had the same thing back stage Glastonbury with Stuart from Mogwia... Recording in the studio, touring Europe, Germany, Italy, Holland. Things could'nt be better. ................

During this time I had been made President of the student union at a College of Music and to tell you the truth what with that and being in a popular band , it was all starting to go to my head, power crazed i must have become... ha, looking back on it now it wasnt so bad, my own office, me just a mere student, sudden popularity, hmmm not really, not so much as you would notice anyway, although i must have been popular at the time to get the job in the first place hey!
so, there I was , President and a mad bad, kick ass drummer, ahem, sorry for the title, just came to mind, anyway, the point is, i had a lot going for myself, not only was i in a good social position but I had recently climbed out of a very large hole that was self dug through neglegence and down right stupidity on my behalf what with all the rock n roll and what comes with it, if you know the language I'm speaking,. Thankfully i didn't end up in Hospital, i was close to it mind, but my Dad , god bless his soul - not dead - took me under his wing at my lowest ebb and had me planting flowers and eating vegetables, to him the most important thing was to get my body clock back in order, getting to bed before midnight and rising with the sun. - This all sounds so much out of place when thinking I had started this story on such a high note- .

Reiki if you re not familiar with the process, it is where you are put into a state of calm and are re-balanced with all your Chakaras and energy points. A close friend of mine had recently become good at it and decided it was time for me to have a go, as i was due to leave for Glastonbury shortly, and what better time to get 'ready'.
Something else that needs pointing out here, is that I had been to see the Australian doors with some good friends and had taken Acid, it was my Birthday. Along with the Acid I was given a book, the Celestine prophecy, which I read that night and hastily missed the part that explains its not a real story!!!...

we are now leading up to the digging of the whole bit...

The book was great, a real eye opener! wow, i thought, what great a way of spending your time, chasing after insight and spiritual meaning. Boy was I confused. easily done, especially in this modern day of age with technology at its highest and the brain trying to keep up with all this information overload, there's bound to be a point where your mind just says "right thats enough, I've had it, I think I will just stop working properly and start creating a whole new reality based on psychosis and fame". "Lets pretend we're Jim Morrison and stay up for seven days and seven nights philosophizing". I am the Lizard King, I can do Anything!

But you cant, and you wont, not if I can help it, now start crying and don't stop for a week or two, then let me know what your thinking, and see if black is really white, up is down, left right, and vice a versa...
Whoa Whoa there boy, slight tangent there; or is it? , maybe not, maybe sounds too mad, but until you've been there i guess you have nothing to compare, those of you who have been there though, know exactly what i am talking about, know exactly where i am coming from and know all about how one can find oneself in such a dark and frightening place.
There are many artists and the like that have had stress related breakdowns, brought on either by the use of drugs or just for the fact that their mind's are just way too 'out there'.



Now begins the real story of how I met my wife and was led out of the darkness and into the light ,

once i was blind but now i see, now that you made a believer out of me babe.


Sitting in my room one night, a figure appeared in front of me, as if by magic and as quickly as she had arrived, she was gone, into thin air.


to be continued